The Cyanide

Adek Boge Toge

Ok people. (peeper)

Let's all wish a Happy Birthday to My Most Spoilt Brat-Baby-Brother.
Hahahahahah.
He officially turns 8. Wth? One digit no? And i'm going 20. $#%@&
Ok shoot.

Break fast with my family to IMM.
I lurve the fried fish soup there but somehow it wasn't the same as i expected.
I used to eat there everytime with "dono-wads-his-bloody-name" Hmph. Ok whatever. I miss my grandma. Haiz

AND LASTLY
I CANNOT GET ENUF OF DIS PICTURE
SO THE TERENCAT
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

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googing @ 12:09 AM

Gossip girl

I'm currently in love with GOSSIP GIRL

And of course i just love staring at Penn Badgley.
OooO. Superbly Hot. *winks*
I've been watching it since the 1st episode of Season 1.
And now Season 2 has just begun.
I seriously can't wait for the 4th Episode
titled Ex-files! Haha.
Am i a drama freak or am i? LOL. I think i have obsessive compulsive disorder.
I can be totally into this series and i'll even think about what'sgonna come up in the next episode!!
Omg, there's something wrong with me.
Totally.

I love my dad & I love my dad again.
There's no one else that can handle things the way he does it.
And thank him that its only between us & him.
How i wish i could take back all the hurtful things i've done and said to him.
Becoz now then i realise that he can go to even the deepest holes and try his best to make sure that we're all right.
I love u again.

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googing @ 10:42 AM

A7X

Shit Shit Shit!!
Avenged Sevenfold's coming to Singapore.
And i'm asking my cousins and friends to go.
Coz i wanna go.
Badly.
AAAAHHHHHHHH!!

Labels: and all things will end

googing @ 3:34 PM

*YAWNS*

P.s: Coz this post is really bored. Seriously.

I simply cannot get enough of my bored life.
I don't know why everytime i feel like when life's bored,
i fall into depression mode.
Like seriously DOWN mode.
What the hell is wrong with me or isit my surroundings?
Everything is so boring nowadays.
I look at myself in the mirror
and i see a really lame looking person.
Haha. Wonder what's up with me nowadays
Coz i can't stand boredom AT ALL.
I'll fidget and start to get into "Egna" mode.
Life's supposed to be full of
colours & rainbows & roses & butterflies & of course laughters.
I, here lack all of those.
My life's like those black & white & sepia pictures u see in oldtime movies.
Gosh.
Somebody help me, pls.

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googing @ 11:03 PM

Boredom Babies

Hey everybody.
How's life? Bored?
Yeah me too.
You know i know, Ok Sab?
Wakaka!

Woke up in the morning and i got missed calls and text msgs.
Most of them were from him. Asking me to take care and everything.
I'm not sad and i'm not pissed.
Bcoz seriously, i dont even know how i feel.

Mami Jarum is seriously getting on my nerves.
I almost had a fucking breakdown early in the morning.
Omg. What a way to start a day.
Can things get anymore worse? F***

Aniwae, just finished my blog-hopping process of the fellow ex-yusoffians. And i'm reminded of my sec sch times. All those happy-daffy memories! Oh how much i miss all those old times! Can i turn back time? *Sob Sob*

Then i was reading&reading and came across one saying that girls and boys should have social equilibrium. What the hell. I totally disagree on this one! There is no such thing. Whatever it is, i still believe that girls deserve alot more, simply because we are BORN to be girls. Haha. Ok i'm crappin right now.

Yesterday Ape Day Day!
Went to break-fast at lucky plaza. The GC's and Matin Anaqi! He's so freaking cute i snagged a chance to bite his leg when his mom wasn't looking! Haha. (korg jgn blg huraizah eh! mampos aku! LoL) It was superbly fun coz normally when i mit them its not always full house. But then, nana was absent due to unspecified reasons. Hmph.

K i know i'm lame today. Ok whatever. Bye!

I'm fasting right now and i'm craving for nasi ayam penyet. Haiz. Discipline discipline. Can tahan one! Chia Yo!

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googing @ 12:55 PM

Speechless

I am depressed.
Mainly because my mom's been babbling bout how unsatisfied she is with me.
The problem is, i don't know WHAT.
And alot of people are not satisfied with me.
Typically. Urgh.

Now now
A few days, and he'll walk away.
It may seem stupid but then its like a goodbye for us.
It just feels that way.
You lead yours, i lead mine.
It's so simple isn't it?

Gone were the days where i can just act like me.
Without acting, without pretending.
To just be who i am.
Which i rarely do nowadays.

Gone were the times when there was always someone there for me,
No matter how shitty i feel, no matter that we weren't together anymore.
I knew i could always call you up anytime and say what's on my mind.
But i chose not to.
And i'd rather keep it to myself.
And i hate myself for behaving this way.
Because i used to be so dependent on you.
And i've been trying very hard to not turn to you.
Very very hard.

No matter how u seem to be, whatever it is,
I wanna say thank you to you and your family
for every small little things you all do
that make me feel really happy.

I cannot describe how special and welcome
you all make me feel
and a million times thank you.

You and Me?
We have to stop going round in circles.
It's time to stop.
Stop everything.

God, help me.

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googing @ 3:02 PM

Sian Sian

I'll dedicate this post to my dearest Ma'am Sabrina.
Since her pm in msn today is
"HOW BORED CAN A LIFE BE?"
Like seriously, it's so damn *%@#$!@%^@&^ true!
Well, high fives to you and me.
But i guess mine is lamer than yours.
Haha

I'm in school today!
Like wow-woopdeedoo.
I hate school.
And i've just discovered something about myself.
I cannot stand people who talk monotonously.
Especially my facilitator.
Omg, my eyelids are seriously drooping. Sheesh.
What a day to begin with huh?

Ok now you all listen ah? Listen to mommy, listen. LOL!
As you all know, it's the fasting month. And i was so freaking bored at work yesterday. It was sunny outside but in the store, it was freezing cold i kept peeing and going to the toilet. WTH RIGHT! And in addition to it, i was wearing this soo thin long sleeve. How much worse can it get?! Nvm about that. I was daydreaming as per usual and humming to myself when i realised that the stupid store was replaying the same song over and over again for the past one hour! It was "Stairway to Heaven". Even i managed to memorise the lyrics and they weren't decent words at all! wakakakaka. "I close the door, u close the window, i close the curtain... lalalala.. we find love at the top room of the stairs" WAKAKKAKAKAKAKKAKA. MACAM SIAL NYER LYRICS! I sang to my senior and she started laughing like hell! What a song to hear man. My ears aren't fasting. LOL.

Then and then and then, to match this stupid song, I saw something, something so sooooo obvious. There were 2 MUSLIM kids, I guess maybe ard 16 or 17? They were so intensely french kissing and groping each other's hair and neck like it was the last thing they'd ever do. WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT?! Its purely for public viewing, trust me. Everyone who walked past was like staring at them. Makciks and pakciks were shaking their heads. I called my colleagues to come and see and they were oohh-ing and ahh-ing. What the hell. Haha.

These yp's. Don't they know there's always a place for everything? I mean it's not wrong, but wrong because its the fasting month. It's their bloody business what they wanna do, but cmon sia. Do it somewhere where nobody can see lah. Right? But aniwae, thanks to them, it was the entertainment of the day for the BHG people. Haha.

K lah imma stop babbling.
Chalo beteh people =)

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googing @ 9:33 AM

erm.. I'm Back?

My blog's so dusty and i'm turning rusty.

Tell me. Does it rhyme?! LOL.

Hey Guyyss!
I've totally revamped my blog.
And i'm totally satisfied with it.
OoOooOoo.

School Starts right about today?
And guess what? Nothing's normal.
I DIDN'T COME.
toot toot.

I'm so anxiously waiting for my pay.
I have alot of things to buy
but then, without realising
all my money dissappears
*poof*
Oh my.
I really need to learn how to SAVE.

I miss my GC's after reading ifah's entry.
Superbly emotional and it brings back great memories.
Memories that will stay with us forever.
I only wish for one thing.
That whatever problems you guys face
I really hope that we can be the place
you all will turn to, to help you feel better.
7 years of friendship
Will all stay?